Trust is not a dirty word....

I don't let people in easily. I've been told that by a few people, at least. I was shocked to hear someone be brave enough to say it. That I'm intimidating-at first. Or that I seem that I don't like you-at first. That it takes a while to get to know me. I say shocked because that is not necissarily the vibe I intended. Maybe I subconciously do that because I feel there is "no possible way you could like me" so maybe I'm not trying to put my best foot forward just to be rejected anyway. Maybe I don't feel "good enough" so, by my silence, I am staying inside my safe shell. I don't trust right off that I am likable. I have trouble feeling that I am desirable to be around. What do I have to offer? I'm sure many of us have these feelings. Maybe they're left over from childhood inadequecies. Then, when we get older, we find ourselves in repeated relationships that compound these feelings.
We need to get up and brush ourselves off, as they say. Cleanse ourselves of the sticky cobwebs of a dormant life. We need to realize that we, and no one else, are responsible for our destiny. We are the Creators in our own lives. It is all there for us, in our very Souls. It's all within our grasp. We just have to reach out for it. And trust that it will reach back.